Weirdbabe is back to blogsville in full force & okay I have a CRUSH

Hi blogsville.
I know, its been a while I blogged. I've just been so lazy to type something. I had a lot of things to blog about but didn't sit down to type them all as they all happened. Hope I'm making sense. lol.
Its been a great year so far and I thank God for it. Is it only me or is this year moving so fast!!! I'm like WOW!!! At this rate, 2009 will be over in a jiffy.
I'm still rocking the singlehood life. yeah its fun. I've gotten over my ex, even though I get sad some times & wish I never met him. Yeah heartbreak is horrible.
And peeps, one advice - LONG DISTANCE HARDLY EVER WORKS OUT, ONLY IN EXCEPTIONAL CASES.
For me, I'm never doing long distance ever again.
Apart from that, life is good.
Guess what?! I have a crush on my registrar(Dr.) in the hospital!!! He's in my medical team and he teaches we (me & 3 other students in my team) lots of stuff.
He's hawt!!!, gorgeous (am i even allowed to use gorgeous for guys? okay good-looking), has the most beautiful eyes ever (my friends "laffed" at me when I said that, but seriously he has luvly eyes), he's soft spoken, very nice, kind, gentle. the other students (guys) admire and respect him. they don't know about my crush. but the annoying thing is when I have a crush on someone I send the wrong vibes by acting shy around them, not talking much, & acting not interested.
HELP!!! I think maybe he likes me. I dunno. Me and my crushes again!!! Mrs CRUSH. lol.
Its pure torture liking someone and acting like u don't like them. I have two more weeks to spend in my present team, and if I don't stop acting all shy & quiet, that might be it.
The funniest part is I tried to give myself reasons to stop the crush but I still have this crush. The reasons I gave myself was that the odds were against us cos :

firstly -- he's atleast 10 yrs older than me but not up to 15 yrs older than me (I used to tell myself I'll only like/date people 2 to 7 yrs older than me)
secondly -- he's from a different country (I used to tell myself I'll only like/date people not just from my country but from my tribe)
thirdly -- he's from a different religion (I used to tell myself I'll only like/date people from my religion and if possible my denomination)
fourthly -- he's divorced (I used to tell myself I'll only like/date people who have never been married)

Okay wot's wrong with me!!! the odds are against us.
But dang!!! Weirdbabe still likes her doctor crush. :-)

I know u guys will say I'm crazy. but my mindset is different now. I'm all about wot works for me or wot makes me happy or who makes me happy. :d

Lets see how the next 2 weeks goes!c