Sunday, 8 February 2009

On my journey of "this life"

On my journey of life
Trying to find my way
Trying to make it through
Trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel
Trying to make out what life is all about

I know I'm going to find my way
When this earthly life has got me down
I look up above and know God is my guide
So no matter what happens
This girl will always find her way

People come in and out of her life
So she learns to appreciate
Cos life throws us all around the globe
Meeting today, to part tommorrow
And she realises friends come and go

But she'll always have herself

I'M SO OVER HIM (31/01/09) 10:22PM

I just realised he did not love me enough
THough he said he'll always love me
I don't think he loved me enough
If you love someone enough, no matter what you were going through at that point in your life,
You'll never push the one you love away and ask for space
That's when you'll need them the most
I saw a comment left by a girl on his fbk pic calling him baby and her profile pic was of her and him (the pic was taken last june...hmmm, thats before he asked for the space)
So I figured maybe he started seeing her that period and came up with the whole story of needing space to focus/sort his life (to ease his guilt)
I ain't that dumb
The amazing thing is that I don't feel jealous
I guess I'm so over him
And if he ever comes back I don't think I'll take him back
We're better off as friends
So I wish him luck in his new r/ship
Right now I have no love
Just focusing on my studies and getting it over and done with once and for all
I have rules now
First and foremost, no long distance r/ship for me ever AGAIN (notice I capitalised my
Where I am is not where I intend settling so I guess I'll keep my eyes closed here cos nothing, not even marriage can make me settle here
And I told myself I'll never love a guy more than he loves me
He'll have to love me more than I love him
He'll have to love me to the extent that I won't have to beg for his love or make efforts for him to act or show his love
It should come naturally
It may seem I'm asking for too much
But marriage is a lifetime thing so I'm willing to wait and pray for the right person

Ladies if a guy asks for space, its a bad sign and just no it might be over.