Sunday, 13 July 2008

Unhappy Anniversary

Today was supposed to be our 1 year anniversary but I guess its an unhappy anniversary.
Its been 12 days since he told me the sad news.
I'm a lot better now. No more crying, the only problem I have is sleeping. The earliest I sleep is 4 or 5a.m. But I guess that will get better in time. We still text once in a while but that space is still there.
A Wise Girl Kisses But Doesn't Love, Listens But Doesn't Believe, And Leaves Before She Is Left.
Life is a biatch and shit happens.
All I know is I won't love with my whole heart next time even if he comes back. They say love is blind but my love now has double lense o. I aint getting hurt next time.
I just miss the old times and him. Well like I said shit happens.
It will take some time for me to fully trust and love again. Even if I do love or partially trust, I'll have it in my head that the dude can wake up one morning and decides he needs space or wants to leave me for no reason. I guess some spoil it for the others.
I don't blame my sister for being hardened when it comes to matters of the heart. As women we all have to protect our hearts since we're the softer ones.

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20 comments:

NikkiSab said...

Awww.....sorry dera. It must be earth shattering wen those words are said but I assure u dat u will be fine soo. Its beta he told u d space tin dan him disrespecting you by flauntin a new gal or someoda shit. U will get beta. Dont be too hard on a new guy cos it'll be unfair making him pay for some1 else's sin, ok. takia.

kay-shawn said...

Hiya, saw your blog address on facebook and decided to visit. I really dont know what to say! Take care and please dont take it out on someone else. The vicious circle would simply continue.

Standtall said...

Mi-lady, how I wish I have the magic to fast forward this moment for you. I will say pls do not make up your mind abt anything just yet. You have got a right to feel bad about this whole situation and you have got a right to move on too. Pls choose the latter. It was painful that the anniversary that did not take place fell on my b’day but I care

Mz. Dee said...

damn so sorry babe...
this post has got tearz my eyez.. i feel so emotional right now.

Thingz will get better!
take care!

isha said...

hope you feel better soon. I've been there before. It's best you do things that don't do things that remind you of him. And always make sure you have a lot of people around you. The more time you spend alone, the more time you have to think and get sad. tk cr.

NigerianDramaQueen said...

Yes, Shit happens
But you will get through this
Take the time to cry if you want to, and grieve if you need to.
I can only imagine the pain you must feel.
But I promise, THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
Stay Divine,
NDQ.

Tairebabs said...

so sorry girl. I am disappointed to know the space thing is still on. But always remember that time heals all wounds. Not the most encouraging words at this time trust me I speak from experience but time really does heal all wounds. Keep blogging and let us know how you are doing.

Buttercup said...

awwwwwwwww sweetie....as hard as it might be to take in right now, he probably isnt the ONE for u, there might be someone much better out there..just be open..time hels all wounds..the Lord is ur strength...

Tears said...

Just look inside you and be strong...don't really know where that came from...LOL!

Just let go and let live! you so much better :P

Afrobabe said...

One more girl disillusioned by men...

take heart babes...

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

sorry you are going through heartbreak. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Give yourself a 'mourning' period and when it is over, allow yourself to shine. Get back up and have fun, okay. Take care, my sista. Will check in on you soon.

Pink-satin said...

awww babe sorry!!!

Sparkle said...

Like u said..shit happens...no be today yansh begin get center parting!!! But pls pls pls..whatever u do, don't make another guy pay for his mistakes...abeg!
Isha is right..u should be around pl more..it helped me too..I was at every party in town! I went everywhere..I am fine now..never better actually :) and I love it.

You will be fine..it's just a matter of time

shit happens we just have to find a way to deal with it!

archiwiz said...

So so sorry girl. Heartbreak is very horrible to experience and you're totally not alone in feeling how you're feeling. Allow yourself to grieve but please find the company of friends and people who care for/like/love you. Being alone at this time would only serve to make you feel worse.

ShonaVixen said...

i agree with Tairebabs..time will heal ur wounds, I do empathise with you girl..keep ur head up and keep on blogging, we'll be here for ya!

Bookie19 said...

First time on your blog..Im so sorry to hear about your broken heart..With time, you would definitely heal...You know what they say, You have to kiss frogs to kiss your prince

kay-shawn said...

Aawww, I can see you haven't updated. Thanks for dropping a comment on my blog anyway.
Couldn't help but feel your pain in the comment.
I still dont know what to say!
How do I give you my shoulder to cry on over the Internet?
I hope this doesn't sound too personal but here's my e-mail add, if you want to talk or write to someone privately.
kayshawn2008@gmail.com.
You can remain anonymous and that's fine.

Lady Koko said...

i understand......BUT LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE.,...AT LEAST HE WASNT CHEATING!!!!!!! HEY IT REALLY CUD be WORSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DUNNO MEHNN..ME TOO I TIRE BABES......BUT BE CAREFUL NOT TO LET REAL LOVE PASS U BY OOOO......REALLY not all men r the same....and no am not gonna feed u the cliche shit(cos i knu hw much that pisses me off too..lol)
*LEAN ON ME*...KOKO LURRRRRRRRRRRVE..XOXO

You know who said...

Its sad but you will be fine. Like I told u last week I am in same situation right now but with the sexes reversed. Nothing really helps the pain however activity dulls the brain and prevents it from coming thru.

And when u do love again please give it all you have got as there is no point in loving if its not done wholly.

Afrobabe said...

yikes...did I just write on fb that I have never been here????

That seems to be me up there....lmao..